Show Me The Way Home

2009-12-20T10:55:00.001-08:00

Welcome back to my 2nd posting. I wanna tell you a little about my experience with another interesting dug; angel dust. Or PCP. The chemical name of this hallucinatory drug is phenylcyclohexylpiperidine. To further understand the technical details of this drug, click here. It will give you a better understanding of how it affects the body & mind.

My one and only experience with this formidable drug was when I was about 19. A buddy of mine and I were drinking some beers when the opportunity arose for us to purchase a cap (capsule) of pcp at a low cost of $10. We were warned to not drink alcohol while on the drug but we did anyway. I sniffed a line, my buddy sniffed a line and about 30 minutes later I experienced a total loss of motor skills. Memory loss was eminent and soon, I was totally and utterly immobile. I do remember when I went to the store at one point to buy cigarettes, I had a hard time navigating 6 stairs. In my vision, the next step would get further away from my foot as I out stretched my leg to take that next step. I would grasp the railing with both hands and crouch low trying ever so softly and gently to make that next step. Now imagine for a minute if you will how this must have looked. The drug makes you do odd things you normally wouldn't.

I have provided here a excerpt from a website of a description of the drug along with someone's personal experience they themselves had on the drug.

PCP (Phencyclidine) is a dissociative drug formerly used as an anesthetic agent, exhibiting hallucinogenic and neurotoxic effects. It is commonly known as Angel Dust, but is also known as Wet, Sherm, Sherman Hemsley, Rocket Fuel, Ashy Larry, Shermans Tank, Wack, Halk Hogan, Ozone, HannaH, Hog, Manitoba Shlimbo, and Embalming Fluid, among other names. Although the primary psychoactive effects of the drug only last hours, total elimination from the body is prolonged, typically extending over weeks. PCP is consumed in a recreational manner by drug users, mainly in the United States, where the demand is met by illegal production. It comes in both powder and liquid forms (PCP base dissolved most often in ether), but typically it is sprayed onto leafy material such as marijuana, mint, oregano, parsley or Ginger Leaves, and smoked. PCP has potent effects on the nervous system altering perceptual functions (hallucinations, delusional ideas, delirium or confused thinking), motor functions (unsteady gait, loss of coordination, and disrupted eye movement or nystagmus), and autonomic nervous system regulation (rapid heart rate, altered temperature regulation). The drug has been known to alter mood states in an unpredictable fashion causing some individuals to become detached and others to become animated.

"When I was taking the drug, I used very small amounts. The effect was incredibly pleasant and social, so much so that me and my friends all used it instead of booze for almost a year. I couldn’t dance for shit on the stuff (I’d get stumbling and actually fell on my ass on the dance floor once) but the physical sensations and mental pictures were really fun. It is quite different from any psychedelic visuals or even Ketamine visuals…more like rolling through old film footage. To be honest, I liked it more than my experiences on Ketamine. PCP can make one nearly impervious to pain at high doses. Because of this, PCP can make things seem like a good idea that otherwise wouldn’t (leading to the stories of people leaping out of windows, etc.) I experienced very confusing physical reality when really high on it, like being unable to discern the difference between walking up stairs and down them, or standing still and walking. This could lead to very unusual behavior."

From the story above, you can see how we both had the same experience when it came to stairs. They were tricky to navigate. To add, eating was out. You have no working taste buds. And my mouth didn't seem to know how to chew food. Do not, I say again, do not try this or any other drug in which you read on my blog. I do not condone the use of these drugs as they will surely not only take everything from you, family, friends, money, but possibly, the most important, your health, and even your life.

The Beginning Of The End

2009-12-15T06:57:00.000-08:00

"Your lucky I don't pop one into ya now white boy. Get the fuck out of here." This was one of the most scariest moments of my life as Yanick and I trolled the back alley of downtown. Putting forth our brainy idea of trading of a couple of dime bags for a a few rocks. We got robbed, then got told some great advice, to 'get the fuck out of there'. We wasted no time. Immediately my high was dissipating quicker than I could think. A crack cocaine high off a hit only last approximately 30-40 seconds. Depending on the shit you got. If you could smoke binge all night for a few hours then your pretty much stung out for the rest of the night anyhow. What were we thinking? What was I thinking? Did we even really think it out? You don't go patrolling the back alleys of one of the worst crime ridden city's where gun play is all too familiar at 4:00am in the morning strung out on rock looking for a crack dealer. Your only asking to be shot, or better, arrested. Luckily, neither happened to us that night.

Welcome to my blog. Coda is my code name. Coda also stands for, Confessions Of a Drug Addict. I am a drug addict. Although I no longer abuse drugs, I will be addicted for the rest of my life with a disease that took much away from me. Friends, family an education....and my innocence. I don't blame the drugs. They were only there to comfort me when I needed them most. I put most of my blame on myself, and my father who really wasn't a father or a father figure, but more like the Gestapo out of the SS regime. Everything was done his way, without the saluting.

My old man was strict. He meant business, and he knew it. Back talk him? Your looking at the swift backside of his paws boy. I will do him the favour of with holding his name. Just as mine is being with held and everyone else in my blogs. Dates, names of places are also not correct. I am doing this as to keep my identity to myself. It is of no importance to you who I am. When your an addict, your just another statistic. My story is real to every word. I have heard of the book written by James Frey. I am not here to exaggerate my life to get you to buy anything. My story is free. It is here for you to read and take it as you want. If you are a former addict yourself, then you will be able to relate to the message, terminology and goals I have put in my blogging. If you are unaware of an addict's life, then hang on for the ride. It will be dirty, very low at times, and dark and abusive.

Crack cocaine. In my mind this is one of the top three drugs that will completely and utterly destroy lives in a very short period of time next to Meth or Heroin. Crack will suck you in on your first hit. Don't let someone ever tell you they took one hit (a toke) then got off it. Bullshit they did. On a good night, a good run, you could sell your own mother for half an 8 ball easily. There is a lot of information on this drug, more than I could ever supply you with here, so I have provided you with links to pictures of the drug itself and the tools used for smoking it. Let's begin with some lingo. You never know when your going to hear your child, a friend or other family member talking over the phone like this, so pay attention.

The Lingo:

amped (verb)	stimulated by drugs, especially cocaine or amphetamine
bah-say	freebase cocaine; cocaine paste (basuco)
banano	marijuana or tobacco cigarettes laced with cocaine
base	freebase cocaine
base house	place for smoking freebase cocaine or crack
base pipe	pipe for smoking freebase cocaine or crack
baseball	freebase cocaine
baseballing	smoking freebase cocaine
basuco	coca paste (barely refined cocaine with adulterants)
beam me up Scottie	taking an additional dose of cocaine
candycaine	cocaine
candy cane	cocaine
cat's pee	crack cocaine
champagne of drugs	cocaine hydrochloride
chasing the dragon	inhaling vapors of heroin or cocaine heated on tin foil
coke bugs	tactile hallucination after using cocaine which creates the illusion of bugs burrowing under the skin
crack house	place where crack cocaine is sold and smoked
crack pipe	pipe for smoking crack cocaine
crackers	crack cocaine
dusty roads	cocaine and PCP mixture for smoking
flaky	addicted to cocaine
Florida snow	look-alike cocaine
fluff	filtering heroin or cocaine through cloth (often a stocking) to increase its apparent bulk
get your own	cocaine
gutter glitter	cocaine; drugs in general
heavy stuff	heroin or cocaine
homer	freebase cocaine
incentive	cocaine
line	single dose for snorting cocaine hydrochloride
Merck	pharmaceutical cocaine (from the manufacturer)
Ocean Spray	salt water in mister bottle used to spray nasal passages after snorting cocaine or other drugs
on the pine	smoking freebase cocaine
one and one	snorting cocaine using both nostrils
P.F.	crack cocaine in aspirin-sized tablets as a disguise
rail	single dose for snorting cocaine hydrochloride
snort	cocaine
snow lights	visual hallucinations after cocaine use, image of flashing bright lights
space blasting	smoking cocaine and PCP together
speedball	injection of heroin and cocaine mixture
speedball artist	one who injects heroin and cocaine mixture
Wacky dust	cocaine
weasel dust	cocaine
All-American drug	cocaine
Angie	cocaine
Aunt Nora	cocaine
Balling	vaginally implanted cocaine
Barbs	cocaine
Base	cocaine; crack
Basuco	cocaine; coca paste residue sprinkled on marijuana or regular cigarette
Bazooka	cocaine; crack
Bazulco	cocaine
Behind the scale	to weigh and sell cocaine
Beiging	chemicals altering cocaine to make it appear
Belushi	cocaine and heroin
Bernice	cocaine
Bernie	cocaine
Bernie's flakes	cocaine
Bernie's gold dust	cocaine
Big bloke	cocaine
Big C	cocaine
Big flake	cocaine
Big rush	cocaine
Billie hoke	cocaine
Birdie powder	heroin; cocaine
Blizzard	white cloud in a pipe used to smoke cocaine
Blotter	LSD; cocaine
Blow	cocaine; to inhale cocaine; to smoke marijuana
Blow blue	to inhale cocaine
Blowcaine	crack diluted with cocaine
Blow coke	to inhale cocaine
Blow smoke	to inhale cocaine
Blunt	marijuana inside a cigar; marijuana and cocaine inside a cigar
Body packer	person who ingests crack or cocaine to transport it
Bolivian marching powder	cocaine
Booster	to inhale cocaine
Bouncing powder	cocaine
Bubble gum	cocaine; crack
Bunk	fake cocaine
Burese	cocaine
Burnese	cocaine
Bush	cocaine; marijuana
C	cocaine
Cjoint	place where cocaine is sold
C & M	cocaine and morphine
C-dust	cocaine
C-game	cocaine
Cabello	cocaine
Caine	cocaine; crack
California cornflakes	cocaine
Came	cocaine
Candy	cocaine; crack; depressant; amphetamine
Candy C	cocaine
Carnie	cocaine
Carrie	cocaine
Carrie Nation	cocaine
Cecil	cocaine
Chalked up	under the influence of cocaine
Chalking	chemically altering the color of cocaine so it looks white
Charlie	cocaine
Chase	to smoke cocaine; to smoke marijuana
Chippy	cocaine
Cholly	cocaine
Coca	cocaine
Cocaine blues	depression after extended cocaine use
Cocktail	cigarette laced with cocaine or crack; partially smoked marijuana cigarette inserted in regular
Cocoa puff	to smoke cocaine and marijuana
Coconut	cocaine
Coke	cocaine; crack
Coke bar	bar where cocaine is openly used
Cola	cocaine
Comeback	benzocaine and mannitol used to adulterate cocaine for conversion to crack
Coolie	cigarette laced with cocaine
Cork the air	to inhale cocaine
Corrinne	cocaine
Cotton brothers	cocaine, heroin and morphine
Crack	cocaine
Crystal	methamphetamine; PCP; amphetamine; cocaine
Dama blanca	cocaine
Do a line	to inhale cocaine
Double bubble	cocaine
Dream	cocaine
Duct	cocaine
Dust	heroin; cocaine; PCP; marijuana mixed with various chemicals
Dynamite	heroin and cocaine
El diablito	marijuana, cocaine, heroin and PCP
El diablo	marijuana, cocaine and heroin
Flake	cocaine
Flame cooking	smoking cocaine base by putting the pipe over a stove flame
Flamethrowers	cigarette laced with cocaine and heroin
Florida snow	cocaine
Foo foo stuff	heroin; cocaine
Foo-foo dust	cocaine
Foolish powder	heroin; cocaine
Freebase	smoking cocaine; crack
Freeze	cocaine; renege on a drug deal
Frisco special	cocaine, heroin and LSD
Frisco speedball	cocaine, heroin and LSD
Friskie powder	cocaine
G-rock	one gram of rock cocaine
Gaffel	fake cocaine
Geeze	to inhale cocaine
Ghost busting	smoking cocaine; searching for white particles in the belief that they are crack
Gift-of-the-sun	cocaine
Gin	cocaine
Girl	cocaine; crack; heroin
Girlfriend	cocaine
Glad stuff	cocaine
Go on a sleigh ride	to inhale cocaine
Gold dust	cocaine
Goofball	cocaine and heroin; depressant
Green gold	cocaine
H & C	heroin and cocaine
Half piece	1/2 ounce of heroin or cocaine
Happy dust	cocaine
Happy powder	cocaine
Happy trails	cocaine
Have a dust	cocaine
Haven dust	cocaine
Heaven dust	heroin; cocaine
Henry VIII	cocaine
Her	cocaine
Hitch up the reindeers	to inhale cocaine
Hooter	cocaine; marijuana
Horn	to inhale cocaine; crack pipe
Horning	heroin; to inhale cocaine
Hunter	cocaine
Ice	cocaine; methamphetamine; smokeable amphetamine; MDMA, PCP
Icing	cocaine
Inca message	cocaine
Jam	amphetamine; cocaine
Jelly	cocaine
Jim Jones	marijuana laced with cocaine and PCP
Joy powder	heroin; cocaine
Junk	cocaine; heroin
King's habit	cocaine
Lace	cocaine and marijuana
Lady	cocaine
Lady caine	cocaine
Lady snow	cocaine
Leaf	marijuana; cocaine
Line	cocaine
Love affair	cocaine
Mama coca	cocaine
Mayo	cocaine; heroin
Merk	cocaine
Mojo	cocaine; heroin
Monkey	drug dependency; cigarette made from cocaine paste and tobacco
Monos	cigarette made from cocaine paste and tobacco
Mosquitos	cocaine
Movie star drug	cocaine
Mujer	cocaine
Murder one	heroin and cocaine
Nose candy	cocaine
Nose stuff	cocaine
Nose powder	cocaine
Number 3	cocaine, heroin
One and one	to inhale cocaine
Paradise	cocaine
Paradise white	cocaine
Pearl	cocaine
Perico	cocaine
Peruvian	cocaine
Peruvian flake	cocaine
Peruvian lady	cocaine
Piece	1 ounce; cocaine; crack
Pimp	cocaine
Polvo blanco	cocaine
Pop	to inhale cocaine
Powder diamonds	cocaine
Press	cocaine; crack
Primos	cigarettes laced with cocaine and heroin
Quill	methamphetamine; heroin; cocaine
Racehorse charlie	cocaine; heroin
Rane	cocaine; heroin
Ready rock	cocaine; crack; heroin
Recompress	change the shape of cocaine flakes to resemble "rock"
Rock(s)	cocaine; crack
Roxanne	cocaine; crack
Sandwich	two layers of cocaine with a layer of heroin
Schmeck	cocaine
Schoolboy	cocaine, codeine
Scorpion	cocaine
Scottie	cocaine
Scotty	cocaine; crack; the high from crack
Serpico 21	cocaine
Sevenup	cocaine; crack
Shaker/baker/water	materials needed to freebase cocaine; shakerbottle, baking soda, water
She	cocaine
Smoking gun	heroin and cocaine
Sniff	to inhale cocaine; inhalant; methcathinone
Snort	to inhale cocaine; use inhalant
Snow	cocaine; heroin; amphetamine
Snowball	cocaine and heroin
Snow bird	cocaine
Snowcones	cocaine
Snow seals	cocaine and amphetamine
Snow white	cocaine
Society high	cocaine
Soda	injectable cocaine used in Hispanic communities
Speedball	heroin and cocaine; amphetamine
Sporting	to inhale cocaine
Squirrel	smoking cocaine, marijuana and PCP; LSD
Stardust	cocaine, PCP
Star-spangled powder	cocaine
Sugar	cocaine; LSD; heroin
Sweet stuff	heroin; cocaine
T	cocaine; marijuana
Tardust	cocaine
Teeth	cocaine; crack
Thing	heroin; cocaine; main drug interest at the moment
Toke	to inhale cocaine; to smoke marijuana
Toot	cocaine; to inhale cocaine
Torch cooking	smoking cocaine base by using a propane or butane torch as a source of flame
Turkey	cocaine; amphetamine
Tutti-frutti	flavored cocaine developed by a Brazillian gang
White girl	cocaine; heroin
White horse	cocaine
White lady	cocaine; heroin
White mosquito	cocaine
White powder	cocaine; PCP
Whiz bang	cocaine and heroin
Wild cat	methcathinone and cocaine
Wings	heroin; cocaine
Witch	heroin; cocaine
Woolas	cigarette laced with cocaine; marijuana cigarette sprinkled with crack
Yeyo	cocaine, Spanish term
Zip	cocaine
primos	marijuana cigarette or blunk with crack or powder cocaine
snowcaps	cocaine sprinkled over marijuana bong hits
con-con	oily cocaine residue

You will never hear everything on this list. You might hear a handful of it in your lifetime if you use. Terms like these are a dime a dozen. The streets has it's own language that the everyday innocent civilian will not understand.

The Pictures:

What you see above is only a sample of how the drug looks. One of those little square pieces is enough to get you high for about half a minute to a minute for some. Now, on to the tools of the trade.

The Tools:
Those are a handful of the tools used. As I sign off for now, let me leave you with this last link as it will explain the make up of crack cocaine,

just click here.

Confessions Of A Drug Addict

Show Me The Way Home

The Beginning Of The End